For a Mother

To all Mothers


I understand and salute you
One day of the year is NOTHING
compared to the other 364
that goes by with large doses


of being misunderstood
...despite good intentions
of endless complaints
...despite best efforts
of lonely fears
...so everyone else will stay brave
of unfinished self expressions
...because little hungry tummies can't wait
and baths and sleep mean the world to a 2 year old.


Unsung heroes
for the most part..
but more than praise and thank you,
more than anything..
we would like to be GIRLS again
carefree and pretty
and for everyone to
put down all their expectations.


Just because i am MOM
does not mean i am no longer ME
i'm still a girl at heart
JUST a GIRL..at heart ~

Love isn't there to make us happy

"Love isn't there to make us happy. I believe it exists to show us how much we can endure - Hermann Hesse"


I agree with Herman Hesse...for i can see the angle he is coming from.

Love doesn't exist for our comfort. Love exists to help us grow and evolve and become our best. And that isn't always comfortable, nor does it always make us happy. Initially anyway. When we finally align with Love's true purpose, then our joy comes. Our sense of happiness blooms to know we are in the caring arms of Love within and without.

We can then see that there is no good OR bad. For seeing things in 'this or that' mode as if we have only one choice or another, is dual-ity thinking. Instead, when we begin to think in uni-ty we can see that both are sides of the same coin..like night and day exist side by side. We can then see that Love knew all along that it was neither good nor bad, but simply what was NEEDED for us to grow to our better self.

Perhaps this is what Hesse means when he says that love exists "to show us how much we can endure". In that when we are finally stretched beyond measure and suddenly..snap free..we become aware of our own great power.

Love isn't there to make us happy.
Love is there to AWAKEN us to the true meaning of happiness...

Accept...then Act

Accept - then act. Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if YOU HAD CHOSEN IT. Always WORK WITH IT, NOT against it. Make it your friend and ALLY, NOT your enemy. This will miraculously transform your whole life ~ E.Tolle

Anger is my Friend..

"We think that if we frighten people away, we can avoid being hurt even more. In fact, just the opposite is the case. By covering our wounds with armor we are preventing them from being healed. By lashing out at others we keep ourselves from getting the love and nourishment we need." ~ Osho


Anger is just a response to pain. When i'm angry..i realise one of two things. I'm either feeling extremely helpless. Or i am being ignored, and feeling extremely invalidated. Making friends with these two feelings, i come to recognise them as fears and experiences carried forward from my childhood. While they were my enemies, they had become automatic triggers for anger in my adult life. But now that they are friends - i can recognise them better for who they truly are, and deal with the pain better. At that instant when i realise i am actually feeling helpless or invisible..the anger dissipates. Because at that very moment when i recognise the cause of my pain..I am then ENABLED to find a way to stop being helpless or make myself visible again.


Anger does make me lash out. But stopping to recognise my pain-triggers helps me reach out instead..for the love and nourishment i need to ease that pain. And suddenly..those 'nasty' triggers have become my friends. Allies. Suddenly the pain ...has led me to have MORE not less LOVE in my life

Bloom

Want, and Let Go

After a lifetime of longing, i no longer NEED. And it seems THIS is the key to finally HAVING.


What do i feel right now? I feel ALL that i WANT to CREATE.


That ALL possibilities lie ahead of me. That i can choose to go anywhere from here. Like a blank canvass ready for any masterpiece. Empty of all that i have been made to believe i am, i am OPEN. I allow all that is good to flow to me, expecting only what is best..because i will not settle for less. I believe in love and love will always find a way.


Love will ALWAYS find a way ~

Noor E Khuda (GOD'S LIGHT)

"On broken hopes and dreams, this world survives.."

So much pain and fear in the world today...
in the lives around me
even in my own life
for i am but human
and FEEL

Does God care?
Does God exist?

In my lowest moments..
I've learnt to QUESTION GOD
Be honest with my pain and doubt
and strangely..
my honesty always brings God's honesty
back to me

Yes..GOD EXISTS
for as long as i carry GOD'S LIGHT inside of me
GOD REMAINS..amongst us

I don't want to fight anymore...
I just don't care who is right or wrong anymore...
Just Give Me Your Hand..
whatever colour
whatever your belief
...and TOGETHER
'WE' will shine brighter
NOOR E KHUDA (GOD'S LIGHT) ~

I love this song..from the movie My Name is Khan. I think it's healthy when people reach a point where they're so fed up, they give up their beliefs..

because that's when they decide on new beliefs
..you decide to be friends with everyone because it's less tiring holding hands than it is to hold a grudge, or an opinion.

CHOICES

At a crossroad today...DECISIONS DECISIONS..
Have you been here too?

Close your eyes and spin three times and then see what's ahead?
Sit down with pen and paper and list down your yes or no's?

How do you decide what to do?

Maybe, i get down on my knees..
and in the still silence of my soul..
hear God whisper...
whatever you CH OOSE..
TRUST IN ME TO LOVE YOU THROUGH IT
all the way to the end

and THIS at LAST..
points my heart
to what i need to do
like a compass points north
strong and true ~

Imperfect

Love is a CHOICE. Every road you take HAS a happy ending - but there are always mountains to climb midway REGARDLESS of the road you choose.

But if it's a road we are more comfortable to travel, that resonates with us strongly - then the Mountains become WORTH climbing and we are less likely to judge, quit, complain, b lame but far more likely to be creative, channel the power of gratitude and gain comfort of solid friendships to see us through ~ ♥

There are no PERFECT relationships on earth. No matter WHO you link up with, there are bound to be really difficult moments between as our romantic partners are the Mirrors life gives us - the ones that reflect OUR imperfections all too clearly...

And not the perfect love of our partners, but only SELF LOVE..the Love that springs from WITHIN ourselves out into the world ...has the REAL POWER to smooth our imperfections away and help us evolve into more beautiful hearts here on earth ~

The Puzzle of Life

Life is a series of puzzle pieces.
And it's hard to play it well or fix it up without ever seeing the big picture first.
What's the big picture?

I think it's that all of us are connected.
That we either Love or be Unloving.

All the information, all the knowledge, all the issues that arise -
I simply ask
"Does this add value to my life by adding LOVE?"
"Am i being LOVING here?"

And suddenly the best way to fix a piece becomes clear.

Wishing you LOVE today ♥  ~*v*~

HeartSong

God gave me wings so i could fly
God gave me tears so i could cry
God gave me freedom so i could have choice
God gave me words so i would have a voice

But for all of this there is a price
Something that often
makes me think twice..


An Open Heart is God's request
Unafraid of pain, Unafraid of tests
A Heart that Loves beyond compare
that will not stop because of cares

It is not easy this price so dear
But it is one i pay without much fear
For i know my God
and i know my place
My heart stays strong...
when i dwell in his Grace.

At the end of the day..i forgive, i let go, i am kind, i pursue my dreams despite criticism.. because i am doing it for MY evolution, to fulfil MY calling and purpose God put me here for..to stretch MY wings and fly.

If i don't forgive, it's ME who loses out the power to Love better. If i don't try, it's ME who loses peace of mind filled with "what ifs" and regrets.
It's not being Selfish.

Marianne Williamson and Paulo Coelho say rightly that we are afraid most of all of our own greatness..we are raised to be so self-conscious and our own sense of martyrdom appeals to us..to feel guilty about succeeding when so many around us are struggling.

But the truth is that only if we shine, can we become a candle in that dark room and shed light for EVERYONE else around to SEE as well..and awaken to the equal greatness they contain within - put there the day they were made by the Source that made them and you and me..and us all.. ♥

Self- Love is aligning with Source and daring to Live by the power we gain from that connection.
Selfishness is focusing on survival, shrinking away from that connection because we dare not trust in it or ourselves or others.

We do not do what is good because we have to. Because we are told to. Because we will suffer otherwise. No. We do what is highest good because we have WINGS, and what good are wings if we don't fly? We do what is highest good to feel the wind beneath our wings, to breathe in the beauty of being so high and free.. We do what is LOVING because it is what sets us FREE to BE the greatness we are meant to be~

A Letter for My Heart

"I have found that there is one collective truth, that is that Love is at the very centre of all our existence. That Love is the opposing force to everything that makes 'us' be who we are, this being the ego, the illusion, a basis made of nothing but the opposing force to Love, this being fear." ~ My Dear Friend Dan Warb

The Unity of Diversity

I noticed today a discussion where each person was putting forth a truth..a beautiful truth they had each discovered and in this discussion, there were so many various angles of the truth..that it almost seemed as if there was an invisible yet palpable, growing desire to find the 'actual' truth in everyone's truth..

Standing on the outside with the eyes of Acceptance open in my heart..i saw that it was actually amazing..all the valid disagreements and yet, all the unity and grace as everyone put forth their own view.

Isn't it amazing that there are so many perspectives of the same? So many different opinions of what truth is..

This is exactly why there are so many of us, all one Great Spirit and yet manifested as many unique soulprints..to bring diversity to this world as there are many colourful and diverse creatures in the sea.

The truth may just be that each of us sees a different angle of the same prism.. and each has to see only that angle for their unique placing in life's path And yet..one day we find another prism view, almost as if we are ready for it as it is ready for us..because we have evolved, our journey has brought us to a different landscape..

And so, all views could be true..for isn't that the true beauty of the Divine - it fits everyone beautifully and meets us right where our specific soul is?

Rest

Sometimes i can't think

i can't feel

i can't even breathe right

i need to rest

Pause, put on hold, take a break.

Even if it's from living my dreams.

Image: Mermaid taking a nap by Efira

Darkness is merely an absence of Light

"People cause suffering when they are suffering themselves. Alleviating their suffering will probably remove their inclination to create it for others" David Blaine

Recipe for TURNING ON THE LIGHT:

(works equally well for self and for others)

Where there is Fear, allow in Love.

Where there is Lack, identify an existing Abundance.

Where there is Judgement, opt instead to exercise Acceptance.

When i hand out these balloons, they make hearts LIGHTer..and life so much BRIGHTER

Free Spirit

I love the way dandelions seem to just float off indefinitely..to me they are the perfect ambassadors of marrying freedom with trust.. they go for as long and as far as they can with a breeze and wherever they land, they give their all to grow. I like that attitude towards change. Life is full of change and if i can embrace them unafraid and with a willingness to work with it, i too can not just survive BUT thrive wherever i finally land ~

Life is a Garden

i am the one doing the waiting..

many many little seeds around me
that's how i see life
when there are things i'd rather see happen NOW

i take a step back and reframe
that they are actually seeds or seedlings
and then
i can see how i should wait patiently
for Nature , the Universe, Love
to set the perfect pace
for everyone including me

most of all me

Making Time for Me

When life gets overwhelming..i enjoy being outside in nature or making friends with my feelings in a notebook..

Time spent just investing in me, brings great returns to everyone else in my life when i return refreshed and energised to once again be the best i can be.

Dealing with Pain

The more i live, the more i see that none of us have it easy and yet..none of us need to have it hard on ourselves either. It's all about finding the right mix/balance of self-love to give and receive. And the best we can all do is to affirm each other. I don't think in 'right or wrong', 'black or white' anymore..not after so much has hit me and so many people did more damage than good trying to judge before they supported. We all walk in different shoes, but a blister is a blister. They don't hurt differently just because they were caused by different shoes. So i don't ask anymore what shoe it was or why they wore the shoe..i just get the salve and band aids. They have enough pain dealing with the blister without me helping them focus on it even more.

Loving acceptance is going beyond judging, and coming from a place of compassion that acknowledges that pain is pain. There is no pain greater or lesser than another's. Is a 5 year old crying over spilt paint over her artistic creation in less pain than a man who has lost his job? Or are the consequences of a lost job just harder to deal with and so we grade it as a higher pain? Both need affirmation, both need understanding. Each person's pain is relative to their own capacity of dealing with it. To offer comfort and healing, is to offer love that does not 'grade' one person's pain over another's. We all hurt and bleed, and bleeding one pint or bleeding five pints is no less painful. Perhaps it is each person's threshold of pain that we actually judge..and if this is so, then perhaps it is the amount and administration of affirmation that differs. But in all instances, there is need for affirmation. And if this so, then perhaps it is easier to do away with judging altogether for what purpose does it really play in offering the support required? If it is to help me decide how much of my own time and effort to contribute, then isn't it far better for me to evaluate myself rather than the person receiving my care?

When i am in a place of self love and my own love tank is full, i can affirm and support others better. So in that sense, affirming others isn't about how much they 'deserve' it, but more about how i feel about myself and how much i have to give. All the more reason to love myself well. It truly is what makes me love others better. And for that matter, perhaps it is why i have learnt to embrace pain better..for when i learn to heal myself as an act of self love, it empowers me to affirm others through their inevitable pains too.