Is it miNe .. these darker shades of me?
If they are, then there is a call to grow somehow .. beyond them. A call to locate and eradicate them from merging with my cell memories. And this is the hardest part .. for it involves Self Love : forgiving myself followed by the reLease of self judgement, regret and guilt, along with the release of a need to have a different outcome than what has transpired.
I find .. if i allow these shadows space .. on the surface .. and give myself the freedom to FEEL all these emotions without judging them (meaning just because i feeL awful doesn't mean i am awful or my life is awful), and instead i paint or read or listen to that which echoes and reflects my feelings .. soon, the clarity coMes .. if i hold steadfast a deSire to heaL.
If the paiN was never mine .. but passing through my way, or stems from cell memories of those before me, the cLarity comes sooner. If the the paiN is my own .. it comes a bit later after i have giVen myself the LoVe that i was looking for in others. Yet always .. if my awareNess is that i am just the sKy and these emotions are but cLouds and guides on my soul jourNey .. i make it through .. and transmute base metal into goLd ~~~ This is the sacred heart alcheMy ~
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