In the past i could glad die from what was not beautiful .. yet now there are many comfy, cosy pockets in my life. And to die willingly from what is good is not as easy. However, one by one ... i am finding these comfortable pockets fall away. And this always drives me into myself .. away from all i know and love.
I am aware that the Universe does this for my highest good. After all, i hardly work on my spiritual journey anymore the way i used to. I don't go into a spiritual gym for a workout, but just rest in nature and in love .. a lot like when i was 5 and hadn't met any spiritual exercises yet. Because i desire with all my heart to be on the path of love, at the right time .. flow will carry me to where i need to be. And this is exactly what is unfolding now.
While who i am is authentically me, to some extent i now find myself limited by this 'mask' of my own making. And authentic as it is, it is like having to wear the same uniform everyday. And i think this is how we all become sometimes trapped, even in the hats we love to wear. This is me, but what if i want to be some other way today? I am perfectly fine as i am .. and yet, JUST BECAUSE .. i want to be something else. Somewhere else. Someone else. Because my soul is that of the Creator's and carries with it the seed of Creativity. And my favourite canvass of all .. is myself.
And that is how i know, it is now time to die. It is time to evolve and be something else . Or maybe more of the same. Yet, the rickety bridge before me that will take me to the other side .. seems to be the willingness to give up all that i am happy with right now .. PERMANENTLY.
This is by now, a familiar junction. To give up all that no longer resonates with my soul .. and go free. Yet this time, i am breaking free from what i have built in joyful consciousness rather than mere baggage. And so in some ways, it IS almost a different junction .. for it is at the same spot, but at a totally new layer.
LoVe is calling .. and i must begin .. again.
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