Girls, each of you have been a precious gift to me. I could never have learnt as much as I have, grown so much, experienced so much of life, without being your mother. You are each amazing people, and it's a privilege to watch you bloom.
Yet, some days you must feel you are a burden more than a joy to me. The truth is, on those days it's my own sense of lack, my own feeling that I can't be enough for you, that makes me sad and distant - even angry. That is hard on us both.
I love you. But its not enough to love you deep down, I know you need to feel loved high up too. So I think we need to accept this about each other - that sometimes I must love you high up in ways you prefer and that at other times I can only love you high up in ways that I prefer. The point I want you to see is that whatever the way, I am loving you. Accepting this would mean we can truly enjoy each other, without the burden of high expectations placed on each other.
Loving you is not a chore, so I won't make it so.
Loving me is not a demand, so don't act or think like it is so.
Let us love each other freely, simply because
we are meant to be together,
because it is written in the STARs..
That I am your mother..
that love will flow from the Universe to you from me
and that it will return to me from you.
A complete circle, a constellation neither you nor I can ever undo..
Originally posted on Facebook Fan Page Friday 16 July 2010
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