Some days, i feel quite empty. I know i can write, i could talk to someone, i could read , i could even watch an interesting movie..but i don't. For some reason, i just feel far too distant, or too drained to do any of them, and instead i do... laundry. I sweep the floor, wipe the counter top and put away the dishes.
I get on facebook and i go blank. So many people around me and yet i feel...lonely.
All the people, places, things... they all become an overwhelming conglomerate of needs and feelings and mish-mashed energy sources and drains.
These are days i think that my heart is warring with my mind and I'm not taking sides.
These are days when it's someone outside of me - a friend,a lover, a stranger even - touches my heart and then suddenly the balance shifts. A smile, a picture, an affirmation or just plain being in the presence of someone else who is following their heart frees me to feel again. My heart wins, and my mind surrenders it's programmed hold on me.
This is the human touch. The power of LOVE.
It is the reason why i need to stay connected to the people and the world around me, if only for the days when i lose touch with myself. But i think also, to be available for the days when those around me get derailed and need help with their heart-mind battles too.
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