A Work of HeArt

i made this 13 years ago when carrying my first daughter. i feLt parenthood was going to change our liVes forever .. and i knew with this enormous gift, came the crushing never-ceasing responsibiLity of supporting another life totally dependant on me for EVERYTHING. I reaLised then i couldn't possibly go it aLone .. and have leaned on God ever since. 13 years on and countLess prayers later, my third daughter starts school tomorrow .. and we leave babyhood behind for good. I look at them now, especially at my eldest who is an amazing teenager i am proud to call my friend .. and i am certain that no other accomplishment in my life will ever come cLose to having committed my heart and time to raising my children and being there for them totally in their foundation years. Yes, i could have attempted this aLone .. but i'm so glad for all the divine intervention. I've been far below perfect .. just loving .. but it's been sufficient after all. Because when we trust in the process of Life and with LoVe offer our best, God really does take care of the reSt ♡

Step Out of the Way

I've had too much on my mind lately. And there's only one way out for me .. to stop being so careful and do my best each day and that's that.

Anything more is neither in my hands nor part of my healthy journey .. and many things will happen because it's part of other people's journeys.

I need to get out of other people's way .. build them up no matter what. I need to get out of my own way .. live in each moment as if there has been no past reference nor future chain of events. That's not denial for me .. but an active participation of life as it happens ~

Love .. owns me

i want to run out into the open
until there are
no more roads
no more buildings
no more anything
... but open sky
and then i want to fall into it
and never return

i want to fall into a field of flowers
and spin around and around
until i collapse into their fragrance
and become a patch of grass
pouring adoration to the sky

this journey is difficult..

to stay in these borders
within these limitations of skin,
when my heart longs to fly free

i love you ... yet i cannot stay
how do i make you see that my love is an ocean ?
it will never cease to be
though there are tides that flow to and fro
making you believe that i come and go
when all along .. i am never a drop lesser than i've always been

i carry you in my heart
and i stay when i'd rather fly
but know that i must leave when the clouds call
for i belong to no one
not even me

let me hold you close before
either you or i must leave
and let me hold you in my heart forever ..